Vacations: Your Euphoria of Existence

For the past few months all I have ever done was dwell in schoolwork. Wake up early, attend classes, go to organization commitments, study for upcoming quizzes, and all other activities college students are expected to do. It was routinary but extraordinarily tiring. And, ever since I could only beg. Please after all these, let me go out of town – specifically not this place, not here, any place else but here!

Finally, after three weeks of official vacation I managed to relieve myself of the thought of school. Somehow AMV engulfed me in a traumatic experience, which cannot be set into words. Perhaps you may say I’m looking for an escape but I guess this has been something that I have deprived myself of for too long, after a whirlwind of doubts being “at work”. Something they call the necessary break. That moment where you allow yourself to indulge into something familiar but now has become foreign in so many ways, that you dare not think anymore and just allow your senses to remember, how it is to know serenity.

After days of I’m not sure whether it be reflecting or overthinking, I figured that a vacation may be simply put as – a longer break. In a span of three weeks I was able to glimpse beyond the corners or our classrooms and see green pastures once more. Meet friends that I have not seen in ages, catch up with them and keep in touch once again. Go places I have not been and enjoy new perspectives not restrictive anymore. Watch movies, series, even observe people at work. Try extreme rides, rollercoasters, long drives, and a whole lot more. Not for the goal of finishing a required task pumped up by deadlines, but for the joy and euphoria of existence. Events that serve as reminders to the sleeping humanity in us.

Thank God vacations were invented! Atleast human beings learned of their humanity, believing that breaks, rests, and breathers allow one to be more effective. Just as much as we need sleep so does the need for vacations. We are living in the fastlane but that doesn’t mean that with speed we need not rest. Instead, it is the other way around, the faster we go, the greater the necessity for rest.

Go worn yourself out solving, working, busying yourself with being effective, etc. Just be certain that every once in a while you leave that chair, walk out and simply feel the air. A few minutes off would not hurt, and more especially longer breaks from months of service would be greatly appreciated by no other than, yourself.


The Struggle is Real – AMV Retention Exam Version

My final semester as a sophomore just ended recently, to be more exact five days ago. Well it would be a cliché to say that it was one heck of a rollercoaster ride but… it is so let us just put it there and say that A LOT HAPPENED IN A YEAR (even though that is an understatement as well).

Ok let me give you a bird’s eye view of what I’m doing with my life. I am taking BS Accountancy in the University of Sto. Tomas AMV – College of Accountancy. This year was my first encounter with a six unit class – a major subject. It was quite shocking because of its weight and well its relevance to the program. It is the policy of the college to give a retention exam to the sophomores who passed both Acctg 1A&B and 2A&B. If fortunate and good enough one may also be exempted, given that one maintains a grade of 2.0 or higher.

The first semester was alright, I got by and managed the 2.0 cutoff but the second semester came and the exemption policy was not in my favor. Therefore I took the retention exam last June 2, 2015. The real last day for everyone was May 20 but mine was extended for another week, because of the retention exam. Before the list was posted I already had a gut feel of my fate. I don’t know, I have been struggling for awhile. Especially when I had a failing prelim grade. You see the weight of things matter. The average of my quizzes were just fine, but then the prelim exam… slapped my face with its weight because I flunked it.

I’m never used to having failing marks and low scores but I guess I had to face this one. I was actually beginning to get hard on myself, I began doubting. Am I not meant to continue this program? Was I not doing enough, but I’ve been studying a week ahead the exams? I even began bargaining with God. Every time the exams came it felt like crawling, every single number took minutes to be answered. I was used to spending just a few seconds on each exam item… This. Was. Different. I might not be meant for this… AND THAT CANNOT BE!

Out of 45 students in my block, 12 got exempted and the rest fortunately (because no one failed) was given the chance to take the retention exam including myself.

How would I describe the retention exam? It was 3hr exam which was nothing like the exams that I took before. It had two parts and we were provided with two scantron cards. Theories part – 30 items with 30 points and Problems – 35 items but worth 70 points totalling a 100 points. The theories part was manageable but the Problems part was too long. Each problem was quite “comprehensive” you really should have mastered the basics.

As for my case I decided to skip problems I couldn’t answer right away and ended at the last page skipping everything. And so I read through it once again. An hour and a half passed already and I still don’t have answers. Gosh, I was struggling once more it was not just a two-step problem. More like a 5-step Problem consuming 10-15 mins of my time in EACH ITEM (did I mention there were 35?).

When there were only a few minutes left, perhaps 5-10 minutes, I got tense. I only had 5-7 sure answers, I was starting to raise the white flag and the thought of copying my seatmate’s paper was there already. I was preparing myself to cheat but when I looked around. No one’s shading anything, others were just staring at their papers. Others are not even touching their calculators anymore. Were they through, or did they gave up as well? Then it hit me, they already surrendered.

I got back to my senses and decided to solve just one more. Somehow I managed to pop an answer from the choices, hoping that it was the correct one I shaded eagerly. Though still confused, shocked, and on the brink of breaking down I submitted my paper. The weird thing was when the proctor dismissed us a group of students were laughing, which made me feel more miserable.

And so, when I got out and saw my other blockmates, I was the only one who looked like somebody out of the asylum. The doors of BSA were closing right in front of me waving goodbye.

We began with 22 sections under the BSA program in my freshman year. Then the following year around 19 sections by the second semester around 17? And well now, after the retention exam only 10 sections were left. And… gladly and fortunately I am still part of it!

The struggle is my new reality and I am hoping that as hard as everything gets I’ll be able to get through it with God’s grace. To those of you who might be in the same position. Here is another cliché – NEVER GIVE UP! Because… others do in the process and lose everything they have worked for.

Unknown Treasure

I just felt the need to share where I was yesterday or just a few hours ago. The sister of my godmother died, as a sign of respect we went there and showed our condolences . I really did not know who died and I was surprised to see a huge crowd in such event. Then I knew, she wasn’t just somebody, she was someone in her field, definitely someone renowned. My godmother then started to share about how she died and what see has been doing when she was still alive. I learned that she was a researcher about fisheries, marine life, etc., things too foreign from my perspective but are worth my attention especially for the fact that I am a Filipino. Because the Philippines, our country is labeled as an agricultural country BUT the greatest contributor to our GDP or whatever economic measure you have is not from agriculture, probably it would be in the “Services Part” (let’s just skip that part). It saddens me to know that such person is now gone. She is a treasure of our country. Her researches will truly be of great help; it might just be the key towards developing the things we already have – RICH MARINE LIFE. With the support from the right people everything might just be in place. Sadly I’m not from that field but I’m sure they are doing something. She was only one person, but she was able to contribute as much. I do hope that the right people knew her, people who also had the same passion and interest. And well I also hope that they were able to inspire others because we are now getting closer towards enriching God’s gift better. Again, she was just one person, who had the passion and drive to research and write about what would be essential for the future. What I’m sure of is that she is not the only one. To the greatest institutions here in our country please take good care of such kind of people, no technology or whatever could replace them. I salute and congratulate you po Ms. Merlina Andalecio. I might not have known you personally but I am very grateful for making me a proud Filipino. May you rest in peace! God will now be taking care of you!

Whoever Saves One Life, Saves the World Entire


“Whoever saves one life, Saves the world entire”

This quote is perhaps the highlight of Schindler’s List. And it is quite thrilling to start my blog with something worth reading. Since it is Black Saturday might as well post something worth reflecting. Just a few minutes ago I watched this movie and it hit me. I dare not ask to witness another holocaust just to see a Schindler. Well we humans are good in nature but history has shown that this is quite doubtful. Major changes inflict us and it threaten us. It will be Easter in a few and I guess celebrating it, equipped with a new perspective is quite a starter. None of us could ever do what Jesus did and only a handful would dare be like Schindler that is why I think it’d be better to just be ourselves in an extraordinary way. We all have some sort of wealth we own and we all have that someone we consider helping. Easter is rebirth and freedom. Don’t let something beautiful pass without being left unnoticed. Share a smile and share the news. We are humans and one great being dared to offer his everything just to raise us. I am young I’ve got not much but sharing a perspective might just be my baby step to something greater! 😀 Have a Happy Easter Everyone!